[ Looking up, Claire licks her lips, bending her knees to submerge herself all the way to her chin. ]
Honestly? I don't know. Because I feel like I don't know what I'm doing, and whatever I do end up doing is wrong. Which I'm not used to.
[ Because she is a grown woman, with a high-responsibilities job, and she is confident in herself, and her skills. ]
It's sort of like - I feel like I'm taking a test, and failing it. Like, right now, we're both here. We're both naked. But I don't want to rush you, and so I'm here, feeling like an idiot that shouldn't have asked for this to happen, you know? Because it's not what you want.
[ She means to say more, because she knows it's not on either of them. It's just the way life is, sometimes. Timings go awry, and people can't meet in the middle. But she's embarrassed, at this point, and she turns away, looking up at the moon instead of looking at Derek. It's simpler. ]
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Honestly? I don't know. Because I feel like I don't know what I'm doing, and whatever I do end up doing is wrong. Which I'm not used to.
[ Because she is a grown woman, with a high-responsibilities job, and she is confident in herself, and her skills. ]
It's sort of like - I feel like I'm taking a test, and failing it. Like, right now, we're both here. We're both naked. But I don't want to rush you, and so I'm here, feeling like an idiot that shouldn't have asked for this to happen, you know? Because it's not what you want.
[ She means to say more, because she knows it's not on either of them. It's just the way life is, sometimes. Timings go awry, and people can't meet in the middle. But she's embarrassed, at this point, and she turns away, looking up at the moon instead of looking at Derek. It's simpler. ]