[The response to that first text is instant, knee-jerk, and white-hot. There is no thought or consideration to it at all. Just venom. It's all so much more of an exposed nerve now that he's in the painstakingly slow process of trying to be better than he has been with Vanya.]
Fuck you. Seriously, keep my relationships with my siblings out of your fucking mouth. It's not any of your fucking business.
[He's incredulous at the whole idea of it, honestly. What he's heard about the train- wanting to be on it just doesn't compute for him. He may have thought differently if he'd actually come across it, he supposes. If he were calmer, he might take the moment to think what he might have done if he'd seen Mom or Patch, but as it is he's nothing like calm and the thought doesn't cross his mind at all.]
I'll save you the trouble.
[Anything sent after that won't be replied to, but would definitely have the read receipt there, to let Derek know he saw it. Petty is as petty does.
There's no way for him to efficiently explain the reason that's the first thought in the situation. There is too much there to put it into words-- but the truth is, insecurity is Diego's default programming from entirely too many years of being told he wasn't enough, wasn't good enough, didn't match up, and it's such an automatic state he doesn't even notice it as a separate entity anymore.]
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Fuck you.
Seriously, keep my relationships with my siblings out of your fucking mouth. It's not any of your fucking business.
[He's incredulous at the whole idea of it, honestly. What he's heard about the train- wanting to be on it just doesn't compute for him. He may have thought differently if he'd actually come across it, he supposes. If he were calmer, he might take the moment to think what he might have done if he'd seen Mom or Patch, but as it is he's nothing like calm and the thought doesn't cross his mind at all.]
I'll save you the trouble.
[Anything sent after that won't be replied to, but would definitely have the read receipt there, to let Derek know he saw it. Petty is as petty does.
There's no way for him to efficiently explain the reason that's the first thought in the situation. There is too much there to put it into words-- but the truth is, insecurity is Diego's default programming from entirely too many years of being told he wasn't enough, wasn't good enough, didn't match up, and it's such an automatic state he doesn't even notice it as a separate entity anymore.]