No need to apologize. It isn't easy, of course, but I make do with what I can. I certainly can't change things, anyway, and I hope that by proving them wrong that one day it might change their minds.
[ He shrugs, shifting uncomfortably. It's so strange to talk so openly about all of this. Even with Sirius he's guarded, but he feels understood here in a way that only someone else who has experienced can. ]
It's incredible you can shift at will. Merlin, what I would give to be able to do that. [ He laughs, sheepish, rubbing the back of his neck at his own admission, no matter how true. ] Once it starts, there's little I can understand anyway. I will warn you that it isn't pleasant to watch. I'm not certain what form would be easiest on your or your sister, but if you think it would be safe to run, then that might be best.
But I don't want to endanger anyone. It's easier to run to prevent the injury later, but if it's safer for all involved I've started putting protections on the warehouse. It isn't much, and I've made sure it's abandoned— condemned, in fact. I don't know how long the city will leave it standing, but I haven't had much time. It's why I asked about the trails, you see. I apologize that I wasn't completely honest.
[ He takes a deep breath, nodding his head. ] If you could help, I would be grateful. I don't know how I can repay you, I've only just started my job but I'm happy to give you my wages, anything.
[ To his credit, Derek keeps his thoughts to himself on that subject. He's already resigned to the fact that there's no changing collective minds. One or two rogues now and again, sure; Chris and Allison are proof of that, but the hive mind? No. They'll never change. ]
You would know better than me if it's safe to run, but if you can't understand much in your wolf form, then it won't matter a whole lot that I can't talk when I'm in mine or she's in hers. How's your sense of smell? Because if it's as good as mine, then I don't know how useful it'll be for me to break away to shepherd away any unwitting approaching innocent night hikers. If we went out into the woods and ran, would it eventually tire you out or no?
[ Shakings his head, Derek waves off the other man's offer. ]
No, I don't want your money, man. This is just werewolves looking out for werewolves. I'm happy to help if I can. Seriously; no catch.
It would eventually. I think my sense of smell is good but if I'm honest with you I don't remember much from the time I transform to the time I wake up. I used to wake up in the woods when we ran back home, tired out from the run. It gets less violent if it's not locked up.
[ It feels wrong, talking about the werewolf like it is him. He feel so separate from the monster within him sometimes that talking about this makes him uneasy. ]
But as I said I have the warehouse, so if all goes awry I can always be taken back there. I just... it's hard transforming alone. But I appreciate that you're willing to help. I... it's all unfamiliar territory for me. But what's life without a few dangerous obstacles?
[ While it's not lost on Derek that Remus is separating himself from the wolf, he doesn't see any point in calling attention to it. It's not doing either of them any harm and if it makes Remus feel better about keeping himself and the wolf on separate planes, then who is Derek to challenge that? ]
Maybe we do this month in the warehouse so that we can get a feel for what it'll be like for both of us, given the unfamiliarity we have with each other. Then we assess and plan ahead for next month.
[ A small laugh escapes him and Derek's eyebrows cock just once. ]
Hell if I would know. Dangerous obstacles might as well be my middle name.
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[ He shrugs, shifting uncomfortably. It's so strange to talk so openly about all of this. Even with Sirius he's guarded, but he feels understood here in a way that only someone else who has experienced can. ]
It's incredible you can shift at will. Merlin, what I would give to be able to do that. [ He laughs, sheepish, rubbing the back of his neck at his own admission, no matter how true. ] Once it starts, there's little I can understand anyway. I will warn you that it isn't pleasant to watch. I'm not certain what form would be easiest on your or your sister, but if you think it would be safe to run, then that might be best.
But I don't want to endanger anyone. It's easier to run to prevent the injury later, but if it's safer for all involved I've started putting protections on the warehouse. It isn't much, and I've made sure it's abandoned— condemned, in fact. I don't know how long the city will leave it standing, but I haven't had much time. It's why I asked about the trails, you see. I apologize that I wasn't completely honest.
[ He takes a deep breath, nodding his head. ] If you could help, I would be grateful. I don't know how I can repay you, I've only just started my job but I'm happy to give you my wages, anything.
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You would know better than me if it's safe to run, but if you can't understand much in your wolf form, then it won't matter a whole lot that I can't talk when I'm in mine or she's in hers. How's your sense of smell? Because if it's as good as mine, then I don't know how useful it'll be for me to break away to shepherd away any unwitting approaching innocent night hikers. If we went out into the woods and ran, would it eventually tire you out or no?
[ Shakings his head, Derek waves off the other man's offer. ]
No, I don't want your money, man. This is just werewolves looking out for werewolves. I'm happy to help if I can. Seriously; no catch.
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[ It feels wrong, talking about the werewolf like it is him. He feel so separate from the monster within him sometimes that talking about this makes him uneasy. ]
But as I said I have the warehouse, so if all goes awry I can always be taken back there. I just... it's hard transforming alone. But I appreciate that you're willing to help. I... it's all unfamiliar territory for me. But what's life without a few dangerous obstacles?
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Maybe we do this month in the warehouse so that we can get a feel for what it'll be like for both of us, given the unfamiliarity we have with each other. Then we assess and plan ahead for next month.
[ A small laugh escapes him and Derek's eyebrows cock just once. ]
Hell if I would know. Dangerous obstacles might as well be my middle name.
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[ He takes a deep breath and sighs, giving a nod. ]
Thank you again for your help. I appreciate it more than you know.
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[ Shaking his head he waves that off. ]
Oh, don't worry about it. I'm happy to help. We'll talk again soon?
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[ He smiles, looking a little more at ease now than when they had started. ]
See you soon, then.
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