Well, it obviously does matter because you're talking to me about it, so... All right, are you basically asking whether you're bisexual or gay...or whether it was just this specific guy? Have you ever had a thing like that back home for a guy? That's probably a better way to tell. Unless you want me to follow you around while you interact with attractive people and tell you if you smelled aroused, which I'm doubting, because even typing that is awkward.
Yeah. I know. I was mostly being facetious and then realized it might translate well on text after the fact.
So bisexual or straight/ThisDude-sexual. That narrows the field a little bit, I guess.
It's complicated because of fucking course it's complicated, Stiles. I managed to fall in love with a werewolf hunter who was literally trying to hunt down my family when I was your age. Love is dumb and complicated. It just is. Nothing good is ever easy, dude. When has anything good ever been easy for you? It never has been for me, that's for sure.
I would think being in the prime of your hormonal years would make it that much more difficult, personally, because then you're trying to sift through actual attraction and just hormones being obnoxious.
You do realize that we're in a completely different place, right? Nobody here knows you so you don't have the high school social hierarchy to go up against. You can be confident if you want to and no one has to know that you aren't, if you're not.
Also, Scott has that like adorable puppy dog thing going for him. You just have to play up your strengths. As much as I'm sure I'll regret saying this for one reason or another, you're actually a pretty good looking dude and you're funny. Sometimes. You and Scott are attractive to people in different ways, so trying to compare yourself to him is like comparing apples and oranges. Both fruit, but vastly different flavors.
[ He's...not really sure how to respond to that, so it takes a while. ]
Anyway, I don't think you need to make a big deal out of all of this, you'll just stress yourself out. You'll be attracted to who you're attracted to. Love whoever you want to love, Stiles.
Let me know if you decide you need me to follow you around sniffing out arousal, though.
[ That last bit is a joke. What? He's got jokes sometimes. ]
You're welcome and yeah, that'd be prefereable for both of us.
Sorry about that guy you were into.
Quit treating this place like it's home. Fake it 'til you make it. You'll find somebody else in no time, if you let yourself and stop putting so much weight on it.
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on the other hand, Derek is at least mostly familiar, and that counts for something.
it's honestly like five minutes before he answers]
I may have had a thing but he's dating someone else so it doesn't really matter
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that would be
not great
and definitely not gay, we can cross that right off the list
fuck idk why is this so complicated
you’d think this would be crazy easy to figure out
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So bisexual or straight/ThisDude-sexual. That narrows the field a little bit, I guess.
It's complicated because of fucking course it's complicated, Stiles. I managed to fall in love with a werewolf hunter who was literally trying to hunt down my family when I was your age. Love is dumb and complicated. It just is. Nothing good is ever easy, dude. When has anything good ever been easy for you? It never has been for me, that's for sure.
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idk
I’d just go kiss some guys and see how that feels but historically I am not a dude magnet
or an anyone magnet
when Scott and I went to that gay club hunting Jackson, he got bought a drink like immediately and I was told by some queens I’d look awesome in drag
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You do realize that we're in a completely different place, right? Nobody here knows you so you don't have the high school social hierarchy to go up against. You can be confident if you want to and no one has to know that you aren't, if you're not.
Also, Scott has that like adorable puppy dog thing going for him. You just have to play up your strengths. As much as I'm sure I'll regret saying this for one reason or another, you're actually a pretty good looking dude and you're funny. Sometimes. You and Scott are attractive to people in different ways, so trying to compare yourself to him is like comparing apples and oranges. Both fruit, but vastly different flavors.
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I'm a lot different these days than you probably remember. Like I said before, dying changes a guy's perspective.
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different
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Anyway, I don't think you need to make a big deal out of all of this, you'll just stress yourself out. You'll be attracted to who you're attracted to. Love whoever you want to love, Stiles.
Let me know if you decide you need me to follow you around sniffing out arousal, though.
[ That last bit is a joke. What? He's got jokes sometimes. ]
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honestly it's kind of nice? to read? even if he isn't sure what to say.]
thanks
i'll try not to take you up on that offer
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Sorry about that guy you were into.
Quit treating this place like it's home. Fake it 'til you make it. You'll find somebody else in no time, if you let yourself and stop putting so much weight on it.